Canceled in a Sonnet

What if you watched me all the time? Often I'm undressed

Afternoons I gorge on SweeTARTS and watch YouTube at work.

Red light tickets are fifty dollars but two hundred on a bike.

I forget the Oxford comma, the cat box and my sink is messy. 

My Bluetooth sex toy doesn’t want to pair.

Long showers are problematic. I got my edibles

from an unlicensed dispensary. I set a pile

of unread New Yorkers on the credenza by the door, 

then put them on the sidewalk. My son left a nic vape

and I hit it to write this. My watch is buzzing

at me because my rings are low. I'm nodding because

I doom scrolled last night and woke early to masturbate.

What if I stood naked under my browser history

to be cast from your sight, the most shameful liberty?

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Jim Stewart has been published or has poems forthcoming in In Company, New Mexico Poets after 1970, Liminality, Rattapallax, Passengers Journal, The City Key, Does it Have Pockets, Neologism Poetry Journal, Eclectica, and the Moonstone Arts Center's Ekphrastic Poetry anthology. He co-edited and designed Saint Elizabeth Street magazine and hinenimagazine.com. He teaches programming and logic in New York.